• esmeloasby

February 2021

Well, my promise to self to write more on here didn’t go too well (so far) but here we are again.

I’m pretty sure the general feeling of the country is similar right now, everyone has been feeling this lockdown number 3 worse than ever before. I think having no real end in sight, the promise of the New Year and the good intentions that brings for many, has just ended up feeling kind of disappointing hasn’t it? It feels like we’re just treading water. Not being able to work is both totally weird and monotonous. No income is one huge thing to deal with and get used to, and I’m so lucky to be in the position I am, but not having any real routine, or schedule is strange and not seeing people is rubbish too.

I had a serious creative block from Christmas time to pretty recently. Worse than ever before, just no motivation whatsoever to get in my studio and create something. Such a vicious circle for me, as I know creating makes me feel content and fulfilled, but with no desire to begin anything, it just leads to a bit of a downward spiral. I’m sure some of you can relate, especially fellow creatives and artists who aren’t able to work right now.

I was talking to a friend about it all and something obviously clicked and I got out my watercolours and painting the grumpiness and the blues away. It translated into soft and loose “polaroid” moments of all the feels that are among us right now. The constant clouds that are ever looming atm, for some of us storms brewing-lots of stress building up, rain falling but in beautiful golds and from delicate pink clouds. A metaphor of this weird time, beautiful for many things, but depressing in other ways. It seemed they resonated with so many of you, and I’m honestly so so humbled by that. The key for me when creating is the hope that it evokes emotion with the audience, and these really seem to have struck a chord. It’s been an overwhelming and genuinely amazing to see so many people want to own a piece of this series, like a snapshot in time. I’m so grateful to every single person that has supported my work, thank you. I hope they become distant memories of these tough times sooner rather than later.

I’m still enjoying the watercolours and the moods and how they are translating on to the paper, there is something magical about how the watercolour moves on the paper so will keep working on them until the energy runs out. Hopefully then it’ll be a smooth transition on to the next thing, or hopefully back to real work.

Hope everyone is hanging in there ok, and thank you again for your support. X

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